……..I woke up! But it is so difficult to get out of bed, do what I need to do daily, and carry the weight of the whole day! I am incapable of even doing my housework. Why am I so "afraid" of everything and everyone? It's like I'm drowning in the emptiness I feel, deep inside me!
-Mom! Was I going to wear these today? I was startled by his voice and realized that by staying in bed any longer, I would betray how bad I felt.
-Son! I told you that I ironed it and put it in your closet! I'm also preparing breakfast!
The effort I made to hide the fact that my smile was forced was outstanding!!!
Finally everyone left. I'm left with my loneliness again and my unhappiness that weighs down on my chest like a heavy stone!
Like…….. There are many unhappy lives in our world!
Especially if the person experiencing this is in exile, the value of unhappiness and despair is multiplied. ! What is felt increases and grows like an avalanche!
One needs something, something small! A little hope! Now is the time for hope! Another human being needs the support and enlightenment of another impartial person! A professional person who can explain that what he is experiencing is depression, that many people in the world suffer from this condition, that he is not alone in this, that he is experiencing a temporary situation, even though it is severe, and that science can cure it. But you need to know and find this person! You also need to be ready to find this professionalism! For example, a person who cannot define what he is looking for cannot recognize what he finds!
But how to explain all these feelings? If something is heavy, a doctor will come to your aid. So, what is the definition of what they experienced? You don't feel well, you are depressed, you are unhappy even around your most precious people. You have a pain hidden not in the visible but in the unseen. You have a pain, a problem that leaves you so weak that you cannot even do your daily tasks. Even though you try not to show it, you are in a huge nothingness, disconnected from the world, your environment and your family. Deep! A bottomless void! Absurdity! You have neither been able to make sense of why you are alive nor have any hope about where you will go!
Maybe there is a way to lighten up, maybe it is easier than we think to say "I will go to a psychologist". From all our fears Maybe the natural way to do this is to cleanse! People worry about environmental pressures such as "What will others say?" "Am I crazy?" I will go to the psychologist too! Am I so weak that I cannot solve my own problems myself because of our internal struggles!
Isn't it time to accept that going to a psychologist when our soul hurts is as natural as going to a doctor when we are sick? Especially if the result of this will connect our darkness to light!
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