OCD FROM A PATIENT'S MOUTH (FICTIONAL)
I've noticed something about myself for a while now. I started doing some movements a few times. I cannot feel comfortable without putting on and taking off my slippers at least 5-6 times when entering the house. If I don't open the door with the key, I knock on it many times until I feel comfortable, and once I get in, I can't get in without opening and closing it a few times. If I don't do these, my mind stays there and I feel constant distress and restlessness.
I went into the bathroom to relax a little. I shampooed my hair. I washed my body. But I can't feel like I'm clean. I washed it again. I washed it again. I stood under water for minutes. Then I washed again. When I was able to get out of the bathroom, it had been exactly 2 hours and I still did not feel completely clean.
My prayer time has come. While I was going to pray, my skirt crawled on the seat. I'm dirty, I need to wash again. I went to the bathroom and washed again. When I got out, I performed my prayer, being careful not to touch anything. I can't manage to stay clean, everywhere is so dirty. My hands felt like I was 80 years old from washing them.
These days, it seems like bad and unpleasant thoughts are constantly coming to my mind. For example, things related to sexuality. But I shouldn't think about these things, it's both shameful and sinful. I also check them dozens of times to see if I forgot the stove was on or if the iron was left plugged in. When I go out, I leave and come back many times to check the house. The more I try not to think about it, the more they come to my mind. I started reciting prayers constantly to avoid thinking.
I wonder if I am a murderer. But I can't even hurt an ant. I wonder if I could harm my wife? I started waking up at night and constantly looking at my wife. I wonder if I might have done something to him. Is he cheating on me? If he is cheating on me, will I hurt him? Or did I harm him? Could I harm my children? I should not cut fruit with a knife when I have a child with me, just in case. I'm going crazy thinking about these...
I noticed something while tidying up the house today. The drawers and cabinets are full of plastic bags and newspapers that I keep. I have accumulated so many unnecessary and useless things. My house will soon turn into a garbage house.
I have no time to go out these days. Because I'm always cleaning on my days off. I dust and vacuum many times. Then I clean it again. But no matter what I do, the house doesn't get cleaned.
If someone sneezes, coughs, or gets sick at my workplace, I feel like I'm going crazy with fear. It's like all the germs are attacking me. There are already a lot of germs and dust in the air. I try not to touch anything anymore. Because people touch everywhere. They spread all the pollution on themselves here and there. Among these, there are some very dirty things that come to my mind. I can't stay ablution, I get dirty all the time. I am exhausted from washing and changing clothes.
Those who live with me at home are now rebelling. Because whoever comes home has to take off all his clothes and run to the bathroom as soon as he enters the door. Imagine what gets on them during the day. Even thinking about it destroys me.
You know, there is a stereotypical action when saying "God forbid". We grab our earlobe and then knock on the board. Once I start doing this move, I can't stop. I repeat it over and over again. I can't even remember how many times I tied and untied my shoelaces.
And then there are words. One word comes to my mind: nonsense. I keep repeating it to myself. Sometimes for hours, sometimes all day or for days. This is a very disturbing situation :(
I can't even remember the number of poles, lines and license plates that I counted while driving.
Yes, if you read what is written above and see similarities with your own situation, there is a high probability that you have OCD, in other words, obsession. OCD is also a person. He could not cope with the problems he experienced. This could be a past harassment, a history of violence, or another problem. As a result of these experiences, the brain begins to produce some thoughts. For example, the thought and fear of harming someone, or different thoughts that he thinks are shameful but cannot get out of his mind, fear of catching germs. or similar thoughts and obsessions We say... The person cannot get rid of these thoughts, does not want to think, and unconsciously turns these troubles into repetitive actions. In other words, what we call compulsion is constantly cleaning, knocking on the door many times, checking the stove dozens of times, constantly washing hands.
OCD is a disease that can be cured. First of all, the trauma or experiences that cause the Obsessions should be found and a treatment should be applied to the patient in this regard, and in the meantime, the aim should be to eliminate all of them gradually, starting from the most important ones, by focusing on the Compulsions, that is, the repetitions. The aim should be to get better by getting help.
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